Into the abyss

Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster… for when you gaze long into the abyss. The abyss gazes also into you. Friedrich Nietzsche

Zen and Happiness

There is no need to start happiness after 20 years. You can be happy right now, even when you are not a Partner or don’t drive a Porsche. Things change to easily. You can get sick. You can get fired. You can burn out (if you follow all these items I guess likeliness is low).

Until these bad things happen, just work as well as you can and have fun with doing it. No reason to look at the gains of the colleagues. No reason to think about the cool new position which you didn’t get.

After all, you will reach something. You’ll end up with nice memories, maybe a good position – and 20 excellent years. Every day is a good day.

Zen Monks are not to shy with their work too. They get up at 4am (sometimes earlier, sometimes later, depends on the convent) and start meditation and work (they even consider work meditation practice). They have stuff to do like cleaning the toilets. Or working in the garden. Or as a Tenzo, they cook. They do it with all the care they can get. What ever they do, they do it without suffering and they are (or should be) happy, because every second, even the second where they are cleaning toilets, is a second of their life.

Even pyramids get lost, after a long time. Do you know the names of the people who build up a pyramid? And if you do, is it important that you know? It’s not. Pyramids are there, or not. Nothing special.

From the The 10 rules of a Zen programmer. A post I’ve read many times as there are so many gems within it.

The technical debt of your former self

As we mature and become better developers there’s a funny case of code we previously wrote taking on a certain amount of technical debt purely because we have more experience and knowledge on how to tackle the same problems. We’ve all been there, having gone back to look at code we thought was great at the time to only wonder what the hell we were thinking, or gone back to reduce a long method to a single line. Technical debt is inevitable if we continually seek to improve our skills.

First things first

I have a small check list of things I aim to do every day. This includes things like meditate, write, vlog, foam roll/stretch etc. The problem is I put off the majority of them until late at night and on most occasions end up skipping them in favour of going to bed. While I get to say I got some of the things done, I’m still treating them as an after thought to the rest of my day. Really what I should be doing is putting first things first and getting these things done before I do anything else. Why am I putting things like browsing the news, Reddit and YouTube first? I tell myself “Well I’m just getting started, I need to ease myself into it”, but really that is just an excuse to put things off. So from now on I’m going to start putting first things first.

Films of 2014

In contrast to my Books of 2014 posting, here are the films of 2014.

  • Zero Dark Thirty
  • Blackfish
  • Hangover II
  • Escape Plan
  • Ender’s Game
  • Homefront
  • Broken City
  • 12 Years a Slave
  • Secret Life of Walter Mitty
  • Wolf on Wall Street
  • Snowpiercer
  • When Harry Met Sally
  • Metro Manila
  • Perfume
  • Olympus Has Fallen
  • The Hunger Games: Catching Fire
  • Apocolypto
  • Godzilla
  • Jack Ryan: Shadow Recruit
  • The God of Cookery
  • The Grand Budapest
  • Non Stop
  • Her
  • King of Comedy
  • The Raid 2
  • The Man from Nowhere
  • Sabotage
  • Kill Zone SPL
  • On the Job
  • The One I Love
  • The Morning After
  • Edge of Tomorrow
  • 22 Jump Street
  • Sin City: A Dame to Kill For
  • Camp X-Ray
  • Interstellar
  • The Taking of Deborah Logan
  • Guardians of the Galaxy
  • American Hustle
  • November Man
  • Lucy
  • Fault in the Stars
  • Stonehearst Asylum
  • Gone Girl
  • The Equalizer
  • Chef
  • Dumb and Dumber Too
  • Foxcatcher

Quite a lot of re-watches. Stand out films where “Interstellar”, “Secret Life of Walter Mitty”, “The Grand Budapest”, “Her”, “Metro Manila”, “The One I Love” and “The Raid 2″.